A Lesson To Learn.

Noticing that this is infact one of my recent posts as i have been unavailable for a long time, i choose something i faced all through this time! A Dilemma…

We all see the sun go down and rise up again and something quiet similar happens to you when you think that all is rising up for you and suddenly it all shatters down like it was never meant to be “there”!! Fighting with my own wits and wills i’ve realized that one can never “win” but shall forever “grow”. And maybe that is what i really need to figure out!! As january crept by silently, un-noticed i realized i was over something that is considered as the most threatening of all situations, a break-up!! And now i knew what it was to fall in love.. Afterall love is a place where you need to fall, in order to rise!! So i did the same… I grew out of it cementing the feelings that once existed for someone who meant more than my “world” to me… I was once the one to ignore some of the most important people of my life (i shall not list but they are my bestiest buddies ever!! And as nothing is permanent, Alas! They broke up too *tears flow*) It was February now, (one of my best buddie’s b’day happens to land up here) lolx. Hope now they know whom i am pointing at :P haha!! If not comfortable i was pretty much certain that my so called short term fantasy had finally come to an end!! Sipping up my dried tears i now knew it was time to move on, but actually, this isn’t easy!!

After this sad ending i was woken up to a much more bizarre dream… I suddenly realized that i wasn’t in a phase of life where i could afford to dream!! I had my 12th standard boards ahead me and i was still busy with my “he loves me, he loves me not”… As i plucked the last petal of my worn-out heart (which obviously was now forcibly “he loves me not”) i plunged back to my books… It was then i realized how even bad things teach you in life about patience, it seldom tells us “wait! something good lies behind me…” and there i was, a T-Junction… Both roads lead me the same direction and none was easy… Life is so well planned at times!! I had to choose, leave behind the broken pieces that laid within me, dormant and lifeless.. Or to stick back to them, hopeful and forever praying..!! And you may now say, “Hey gal, those are two different pathways my dear!!” but to that i already have an answer… Both WERE different, but what they would give me in the end was same, a broken and bleeding inner self :(.. Okay, life isn’t ALWAYS well planned!! Some people (like me) have the capacity to ruin it up to the last inch!! *hopeless sighs* But then i still have something to thank “him” for… :) for being there till the end and for the fact that he did tell me that we were much better off as friends!! I now know he was never wrong!! muhan!!

This went on until someone reminded me “Time heals!”. Thanks to him :) … But by now it was already June!! My birthday passed away killing me short by another year (note: i was the pessimist then!!)  It was now certain to me that nothing had gone the way it should have!! Neither my love nor my fate was even halfway the benchmark i had set some time ago, confident, noting could cross my way!! Huh!! Well no comments on that :( I got a pathetic 87% in boards and a 100% at “Not to love”… I had held everyone’s head in the light of shame, and no one said a word :( guess there conscious consumed them!! At times like these you feel a good abuse would have made you feel a lot better..!! And now when i looked back i knew where i was wrong..!! People are right when they say “You are small” maybe somethings are really not made for some people at a point of time!!

It all comes down to a good ending. And if i respect SRK for one things its got to be his dialogue in the movie – Om Shanti Om, “Agar story ka happy ending na ho, to picture abhi baaki hai mere dost!” … (lol i am bad at remembering dialogues so please consider if i went a bit wacky with the words!! ) NOW when i look back i know i am stronger than yesterday, and shall continue to rise till i don’t fall back!! If there are few things I am surely certain about it has to include one big thing… The best you can do to yourself and the one you love is, retain your friendship… its priceless and at times, worth it!! I shall not rush into anyone else and i don’t even see myself hooking up for quiet a long time from now! Its all because i finally know there are few things which are more important than kissing, hugging, crying and cuddling… they are loving, understanding and letting free!! I still love him no doubts about that, and maybe the feelings in me will never change but there is a slight difference now!!

I am not going to fall again, just for the sake of rising!!


Let Your Silence Do The Talking!

“Learning” and “Understanding” was never such fun! lolx… don’t worry! em not talking about the “books”… but “yourself”!

How many times in a day do we land up asking others how they feel and also, how are we? Any guesses? Well all I know is that, for all the teenagers, especially girls, it’s the bestest way to pass out time! (even I was one of those :P but till a few days back!) em I wrong? ;) lolx

We seldom go to others, talk out our problems, ask for solutions and try implementing them, not knowing what harm it does… Well, just pause here, and think for a minute! Do YOU see any harm?

hmmmm… lets see!

name the one person who knows you a 100% i.e. completely inside out? ur mom? nope…anyone else? GAWD! :O don’t tell me you don’t know… how can you forget your own damn name?  (SHAME!)

If there is one existing soul who knows you breath by breath…its “YOU”. so why on earth are you wasting it? SHIT! that’s bad…really bad!

we spend days with people who don’t even know us the way we are, take advices from people which never serve us right, ignore the most important person of our lives, that is, ourselves, burst out on things which never even happened (gawdd!! I hate that “what if” expression X( ) and waste ourselves on people who never deserved us? MAHN! what a waste are we!

why do we seek advices? because we think that others are geniuses? “He knows me so perfectly and he has all the fucking solutions…He is freaking kool…!” lolx… nice joke! :P (seriously!)

If you cannot help your own selves, how can a person who does not even know you (except, off course, your name!) even think of advising you? get up and help yourself! you need that badly… learn “NOT” depending on others friends!

Now the point…”do I really know myself?” huh! what a disgrace! poor puppy does not know himself and thinks that maybe the world would? lolx… great! em srsly laughing…

go to the mirror, look at yourself! you were with this bundle of flesh and bones for ages and you don’t even know what he is made off from the inside? (kick your ass hard from my side! you deserve that…)

Enough of issues, time for some solutions now!

Learning yourself is also a form of knowledge which actually weights priceless. knowing self is an art and not a method, and, the only way to achieve it is by (my personal fav.) the question/answer relation!

Give your ears a rest and mind some peace. sit alone, making it all as silent as possible and dive into yourself. penetrate into your mind and heart as if you don’t know a single thing about this place! ask, discover and reveal your true inner self. question your own self, and for a change, stop defending! dig out your own thoughts. understand the way you think and if you have the zeal and courage of knowing more about self find out “Why?” the way you think is the way you think! confused? try it…and I assure you that its worth it!

you may cry, you may scream! cry it out, yell it out, pet it out or, just pour it out, but in the end all you need is to bring it out anyhow! after some time of trials and errors, you’ll find yourself welcoming a new YOU!

now again face the same mirror and ask the man in the glass whatever you want to know and you will see that you never needed anyone else!

The bestest advise come from nowhere else but, from within you!

Learn commanding yourself and you will know how it feels to conquer a kingdom. and hurray! you just did it in a much peaceful way… <3

so just go back to yourself, think about it and then, just let the silence do the talking…

Hoping it helped in one way or the other…


Tulika Singh…

The Naked Truth…

“If  life could ever be so easy as we take it OR want it, why would we exist?” well… thats what i think! no hard feelings…

As this is practically my first blog i am just going to add in a bit of “me” first in my profile so that when you get back for my other posts (well… i don’t know if you will lolx) you know what are you in for…

So where was i? Yes, Life!

All these “Learn to Live” and “Recreate Yourself” classes, for me, are in for just one place… that is, dump yard! If you could practically LEARN living then what’s the point? I am not here to rectify your view about such absurd recreating programs but to show you just another way to think, and as a reader that’s a bit interesting for you. Isn’t it? ;)

We all think, understand and draw out our own possibilities about places, people, things etc. then why on earth we need a helping hand when it comes to carve our own selves…?

Now YOUR question is “What is life?”… but mine? Sorry! I don’t keep such things…lolx  If such a thing like life could be defined all problems would have had been solved.  Life, in the end, is obviously what you make of it. Its not “What?” but, “When?”. We live each second, likewise breathing. We often confuse ourselves in thinking rather than deciding. Its all that we need to learn.

We come down on the mother earth for some motive (that’s what some of the readers may say!) and I too agree, but the mess we create is when we start to dig into something that never existed. The MOTIVE is not in discovering but, inventing! YOU choose what to do. You DECIDE. God never enslaved you to his bounty. He created you with utter love and passion and puffed in some short breaths so that you can live, enjoy and discover the beauty of his creations. Then why waste time?

We fall in love, we fall heartbroken. We promise not to do this again. And the next day we meet another Prince/Princess Charming/Gorgeous. Lolx I mean… that’s just INSANE! Hey, all those Cupid lovers, if you look outside the window of your imaginary dreamland you’ll find what you have lost.

Let me explain…

Sit near that window yet another time, bus this time think of all those people you had in your life and not you mr./miss perfect. It may be your family, friends or co-workers or even your boss for that matter. There will be a list of minimum 1000 people if you start penning them down. So now, out of 1000 lets say 800 kept you in their good book (wow! You are loved lolx). How many of them are you in still contact with? How many of those are the ones you can still call up at the middle of the night and yell at? How many of those are still one of those “pick you up at 7am tomorrow” types?  think… think… maybe emmm… 100? Or less?? (800 good books and 100 cherished? What a waste!)

Now just take your cell and dial a random number. Let them know that you still remember then. Apologies! And trust me, you would never have had felt any better! Come on! Still reading? GO… this post isn’t going to run anywhere but your time is…

My point is:

“Why do we waste the love we treasure, at that ONE man/woman, why don’t we acknowledge what we get from a million!”

The only asset that we carry on our shoulders is our own self dignity and the only liability? the tears and heartaches you left behind. So for a change lets resolve to love all and hate none. to miss all and forget none. to befriend all and with-hold none. :) if “hate” is a word of  your dictionary, its high time you buy a new one! The sooner you realize what you have lost at, the better you recover!

Have  a nice life ahead!